Today I feel like I was trapped in a Room with no windows, or doors, in a room with no light, and it’s cold, the room feels heavy and I’m in the center of it and I’m sinking, I can’t move. Is room has gotten me, I feel like there no escape for me. All I have is the darkness, Lately I’ve been losing my self to this room where all my feelings and anxiety meet to sink me, even more, deeper into the floor, I feel the pressure, it feels like I’m draining, and there’s no life preserver in here, this room has gotta me it has turned me upside down and now I fell unbalanced, and I can’t stand it why? Is this room controlling me, why? Is this room so powerful, it has taken so much from me, and I’m lost in the dark, in a room with no windows, or door, my depression is winning, and I can’t control it?
I wrote this today, because of My depression. After being in jail for 15 hours in a cell, with no windows, no sound, with no way of speaking to the ones that I love….. I felt my anxiety, and depression raising up, and I started to doubt myself. My depression was telling my that I wasn’t good enough and that no care that I was in here lost in the system. lost in my mind and thoughts.