By Anthony Thomas
When I started this whole ARB Foundation I was at the lowest point in my life, and wow never did I ever think that this foundation would be this big in such a short period of time as it is right now.
So like I said earlier…
I was suffering from depression really bad. My depression stemmed from me losing someone I truly loved. Ali Renee Brown, I can go on and on about how much I love her and how she and Karson was and is still my world, but you guys already know that.
When I started
The ARB Foundation was my way of keeping Ali heart alive…….. All she ever wanted to do was to help those in need, Ali heart was so big she wanted to help those suffering from depression and addictions. Ali was strong she battled her depression, and her addiction every day, and always maintained a smile on your face even if it was just to put on the front. She lived her life to the fullest.
Ali would often tell me about her group meetings and how she felt close and connected with all the people there in some way. Maybe because they were all going the the same situation.
I will never forget the day she came over to my house after her group meeting and all she talked about was how she wanted to help those struggling with depression and addiction just like her, an in that moment I could see it in her eyes that she found her calling in life, and that’s what she wanted to do. Ali wanted to help young women like herself to defeat their demons and to Rise up against depression and drug addiction….. From that moment I knew I wanted to help her achieve her dream.
On January 12th 2017 we lost Ali, Not to her depression, or to her addiction. On the 13th of January, my birthday I found out that I had lost the one person I ever truly cared about in this life beside her baby boy Karson. That’s when my life became worthless, I felt empty, I felt like i lose a part of my soul, and that when my depression kicked in. I was lost, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, i didn’t leave my house until her funeral!! By that time I’d had lost a lot of weight I was so angry with myself, I didn’t know how the face her family.
I truly hated the world… I hated myself for not being there with her in her time of need to protect her. Man I felt so low and empty I miss you. And I hate that I miss you, because I shouldn’t have to. We should have been plan our life together…. I should be able to call you up. I should be able to see you face them big blue eyes anymore, and knowing that was the worst feeling ever.
Feeling that way really made my depression even worst.
But one day that all changed when Ali came to me in a dream, and she told me that she was happy and free of this world and that her legacy would always live on with her son, her family and with me! She told me that I had the opportunity to help those in need those who are battling with depression and addiction just like she did that I had the opportunity to help them and to have her legacy live on forever…….. With the ARB Foundation.
Then I woke up!! True story……. I will never forget that dream. I know that Ali know that I was at my lowest point, and that she had to motivate me, she had to pick me up, because she knew that the depression was keeping me down. So she challenged me to make a difference, to take the dream she had to help those with the same situation as her, and to help them become their greatest version.
So that’s when I knew what I had to do, so I told the ones closest to me that I was starting up a nonprofit in Ali honor. I asked her Parents if It was okay if could name my nonprofit organization after Ali, they give me the okay and their love and support and the rest is history.
We started ARB Foundation officially about 5 months ago and I can’t express how grateful I am for all the love and support we have accumulated in such a short time. I am forever grateful to all the people who have supported me, from the start people like Emma Bartshe, Rhonda Dean, Trent Brown, Kendall Foreman, Liz Bentley, etc…… Because without you guys, and Ali, and Karson, none of this wouldn’t be possible.
Thank you…… Ali Renee Brown, for changing mylife forever.